No longer a player

Went for volleyball training today again. Second time I went. Last week I was late and I still got to play 3 sets. Today I got to play 0 sets. Spent my time on the ger's court setting balls for those who didn't get to play. Rediculous. I don't need to spend my wed night practising setting. U will not see me next week going down for training.

All was still going well before training. Did my maths tutorial 2 and I actually managed to finish it before I slept at 5am. Went for sch and programming lab was still not really that bad, for I did some reading up before going. So knew almost what to do. EE tutorial was a breeze as well. After that I went to the library and to my surprise, I'm actually almost finished with maths tut 3 as well.

Nothing went well after training. I'm now having a headache, probably because I did not really hydrate myself today. Plus I didn't eat lunch and dinner as well. Was supposed to eat supper with pf and whoever wants to go, but I walked off straight after training.

I'm old and mature enough to understand the point about if you are not good enough, you don't get to play. It is such a simple idea. The point is am I not good enough for even a set? Its a damn insult that I don't get any match practise in this team. Bad way for me to spend a wed evening spoiling my own mood and not getting any good practice. Not to mention another backache, painful knees and ankles about to go anytime.

I was at one point of time a good libero. At least thats what I thought and many people could see. Only until I went to a certain team did it all change. I spent 2 important years of my volleyball career not getting any good training to be a libero.

I lost. Badly.

Anyone who read this... I'll be ok with a night's sleep. Sleeping is the only time you don't have to think.

Open's finals 05

Went down with Jinquan to see the open's finals today. Wasn't really anything to be really proud of, 3 sets straight, held at a lousy venue like hougang sports hall with no spectator stands, no publicity and its supposed to be the highest level of local volleyball competition? I give up...

The match itself was a quite 1 sided affair. It was quite evident 1 side was composed of some younger players and strong main spikers. The other side had more experienced players (ie old), better but shorter setters. In fact I guess 1 of the main problems is that their left sided blockers could not cope with the main spikers of the other team. At the end of the day, youth and stamina proved vital for the win.

Saw a lot of familiar faces. Caught a glimpse of the HC alumni guys, who was what I set out to be one of them at one stage of my life. And I did managed to be part of them, however short and unhappy the experience may have turned out. After I left for NS I didn't talk to any of them anymore, even though sometimes I may see them around during such events. I do not know why but I just try to avoid them. Saw diwen as well, as told to me by lj he really expanded. Haha, but I still can recognise him I guess.

Maybe I will be back in the opens as a player one day? No thanks.

I'm back

I'm back. It means 2 things really. 1st thing is that I finally have my comp repaired, so i'm able to be back online on a regular basis at home even though I've been using the sch network comp quite regularly this days as well. But what is more important...

I went down for the so called ivp team training cum trials yest nite. Was coaching in the afternoon, so was abit late. In fact, very late. Managed to drag ting and hanwei along though. Shengzhi was there much earlier, and thanks to him, I got to play a few games. So i'm back to a very very familiar volleyball court, hitting a very famliar ball which have been in my life since I was quite young. Recognised a few familiar faces as well, a nyjc guy, a guy frm eusoff which I've been annually "called up" to play friendly games with them and a guy who was from st hilda's and went to srjc. I guess I have to take note of the last guy more. He is also a relatively good libero, in fact I might have to say i'm not gonna be able to beat him in the position in certain parts of my game. But he can play as a spiker or a sub-set as well. So I might still stand a chance (or at least I hope?). But anyway, its not a bad feeling to be back in touch with the game as a player than a coach or old boy. Their trainings is only once a week for the time being, so why not just play along and see what other guys are there in nus? I know of a few more who did not turn up for the training. So we'll see.

Just a small side issue. Is it me or what? I'm actually quite surprised that some classmates took the initiative to talk to me. Haha... as I've always maintained, I'm anti social cum attitude problem. But I guess back in the service industry even for a short time might have taken just that bit of me out of me.

G2000

Finally I have ended my stint at G2000 yesterday. Worked only for around 5 weeks, really did enjoy my work even though was working my socks off during the sales period. All my colleagues treated me pretty well, knowing I did not really have any experience in the retail industry, all of them also taught me quite a few stuff. All the things I had learnt are non-textbook stuff, which is probably just as essential as the stuff I am going to study for the next four years. So getting some work experience in different line of work is quite useful.
Went to work abit earlier to drop by cold storage to buy some stuff for the staff to eat. Ended up with a bottle of green tea, some hershey's chocolate and rocher. Think the rocher should have been finished by the end of the day. There was not really a lot of customers despite it being a sunday. It felt even more empty as we had quite an abundance of staff working that day. Eka went to buy a cake to "celebrate" me leaving and even sang something similar to a birthday song for me leaving. The cake was really quite nice. And must mention qiuyi for cutting the cake. Not to be outdone, I dropped by old chang kee to buy some stuff for them to eat. Before eka and emily left as they were on morning shift, I dropped their cards inside their bags. I did not want anyone to read the cards like right in front of me, I will feel embarassed. Before I left, I also personally handed the cards to the other staff who were around.
Who knows what will happen right? As I said, maybe i will end up working at the wingtai hq? Maybe I will go back and work during my holidays again? Maybe i will have a chance to work with some of them in the future.
All the best people.

mistake

I had made this one single, unknowingly and unwillingly mistake that up till now I still do blame myself whenever it comes into my mind. I really hope to tell myself its not my fault as I myself won't have wanted things to turn out that way, but there are just so many things in life that you are not in control of. That incident happens to be one of that many.

The problem with me is that I have a very bad memory. I'm half or actually near to eighty per cent close to committing exactly the same mistake as I did the other time round. I'm finally realising it now. But its now too slow to stop the same mistake from occuring.

I really dunno how it will go from now. Maybe its just that I abit too paranoid about the whole issue. Maybe it won't turn out the way it turned out the previous time. Maybe it will turn out to be for a happy ending this time round? Maybe I should really attempt to do something about it. Maybe I should just let it flow and see how it goes. Maybe I don't really know what I'm doing.

1st day of sch

Today is my fifth first day of school, in sequence from kindergarden, pri sch, sec sch, JC and now finally tertiary. I have always not been able to sleep well when ever I am about to embark to a new journey, today included. I managed to sleep like 4 or 5 hours before waking up and preparing myself for school.

Today I had 2 lectures, a physics and programming lecture which had an interval of 3 hours in between. Initially I thought it won't be easy to get past the time, but spending the time exploring engine faculty and to central library that area, plus meeting up with jinquan to take his phy textbk, it was actually just nice to keep us occupied. Saw alot of familiar faces in the campus today, alot of ex hc and chs pple, some pple who look like my brother's frens, a person who looks like was frm my pri sch but wasn't my batch and a pri sch clsmate.

After attending the 2 lects today, I know I'm in a hard time. To be frank with myself, I never really wanted to be an enigineer. I only wanted to take ise out of all the engine courses. Or else I'll probably have took up a course in business or arts n social sci. Today's lectures only further verify the fact that I'm not a engineer calibre, but i hope things will get better after the 1st yr basic modules when we get on with the 2nd yr specialised modules. In the mean time I'll just try to see what I can do?

And somethings never change... I almost fell asleep during the programming lecture. Guess I need more sleep before school.

Complain

I finally received my 1st complain as a sales assistant. Sounds as if I have already known i will receive complains sooner or later? Not exactly, I can truthfully say that I have been maintaining my service attitude all the while in front of customers. So let me explain what exactly happened...

There was this day when I was at e shop and 2 frantic women came in and pick some blazers and wanted me to find matching pants fast. I did try my best and at least I managed to get 1 set to their choice. While I was trying to get the stock from my store, a colleague of mine served them and helped them find some cardigans. So after choosing all this stuff, they actually requested to reserve the items. My instant reply was that we dont reserve any items during sales period. But they told me one of my senoirs know them and they told me the senoir will allow the reservation. I consulted her and told the two ladies I can only reserve the pieces for 1 day for them. And so they left.

Does it not sound simple enough? Reserve one day means I will only keep the pieces for them for a day, after that if they do not come and get it I will just sell them. It's only logical that I sell them right? Or else I let dust consume them in my store room? Although I did take down their contact numbers on the reserve form but I never mention I will have to call them before selling the pieces? And there was definitely no rule stated anywhere in the shop to consumers that I will be responsible for calling them to pick up their reserved items. The fact is, we actually left the pieces those two ladies chose untouched for almost a week before my colleague (the same colleague who served the 2 ladies with me) noticed it and took them out for display.

So exactly two days after we took the pieces out for display, one of the ladies actually came back and told another colleague that we helped her reserve some pieces. And so coincidentally, both me and the colleague was having break, and we had to go out and explain to her. Obviously she was unhappy, and she asked why we did not call her before selling the pieces. (I'm like #%^&$$%... in my heart) So we searched and reserved all the black cardigans she said her colleagues could have wanted and reserved it for her, again I told her I can only reserve it for one single day.

The above incident happened 2 days ago. Yesterday nobody appeared to try on the pieces. So today I called up the shop and told my colleague that maybe we can call her this time round and ask if she still wants it? ( Just a side note, she told me that she already got the blazer at another shop when she came back the second time) When I went down to the shop at night, my colleague told me that the lady actually complain both of us to the hq and their instructions was just to keep the pieces and not call her. What kind of decision is this?

I'm really actually still quite fed up over this now. Its still ok for me. I'm leaving the shop pretty soon anyway. But my colleague is gonna to miss this mth's bonus. They have a bonus as long as they fulfil some criteria like no mc, not late for work this sort of stuff. No complaints received is also one of it.

If I did something wrong I deserve to get complaints and reprimand. That I will take it. But I did not do anything wrong this time round.

Keeping touch

Thought of what my sec 1/2 form teacher said to us very early on in my sec sch life. He told us that the sec sch friends are the ones who will become your best friends in life. Come to think of it, he's not exactly wrong. Some of my core group of friends come from the volleyball guys whom we played together for at least 4 long and hard years of trainings, but some other still came from my pri sch friends. I still had a few friends from my 2 years of JC, so still not too bad I guess? I'm really grateful that I do still keep in touch with those people even though our paths didn't meet again or highly unlikely to meet again in the future?

Why did I come to this out of the blue? Yah 2 reasons...

Met a pri sch classmate of mine on the bus on my way back home from work. She was my pri 3 classmate cum pri 4 chinese classmate. This is only the 3rd time I actually met her after we graduated from pri sch. The last 2 times was at the wdl pt macdonald studying for our A levels. She updated me with quite alot of infomation about the happenings to some of our primary school classmate or schoolmates, which I'm very impressed by because I'm like very out of touch with most of my primary school friends ever since I went to sec sch. She was like one of my better friends during pri three but when you are that young you won't really be thinking of things like maybe should get her contact or something so that we can keep in touch in future right? Obviously I didn't. And I still didn't ask her for any email or hp no when I saw her today. Guess I really didn't change alot...

The other reason being I'm quitting my job pretty soon and one of my colleagues was asking me to add her to friendster. So I asked for her email address and is trying to add her to friendster. But will she become like just a "friendster friend"? I dunno. Anyway if she happens to be too boliaoz and come to read this right... Ah ger... got see doc or not? Better recover soon k?