Tears

I've been doing alot of things this one month plus. Sinificantly different things from what I've been so used to doing all my life. I've been hearing many stories, seen many people cry but I had still managed to control my emotions all the way. At one point I really thought I was emotionless, or at least tearless.

But I broke down. I broke down yesterday. I received a sms from a teacher on e previous night that a player of mine contracted cancer. At that point of time I was sad, but I was busy, so didn't really think much. I thought maybe its just the beginning stage, so he still got a high chance to be cured? N he's still so young. But I was wrong. Totally wrong. I heard from my boys yesterday that his cancerous cells had spread to a huge portion of his body. And I smsed my ex teacher then I realised that his condition have got so bad that visitors are not advisable.

I totally broke down yesterday night. Really broke down.

I could have prevented him from smoking. I should have prevented him from smoking. And if I managed to learn and know somethings earlier I could have helped him. But I didn't. And there I was concerned with my own ethics that I didn't want to face and find a solution to help him.

I'm trying. No matter what.

End of a career

Everyone wants to end his career on a high note, reaching the peak of the world and leaving a legacy for the world to look back upon. For some, its the world cup. Many of the players have either announced their retirement before the world cup started or are expected to retire after the competition.

For one, he dragged his team all the way to the finals and there he was, about to finish his last game of his career on the possibility of laying claim on the world cup. And there he was, in the middle of everything, scoring his team's only goal in the process and leading his team to fight on all the way to extra time. With him on the side, even the possible shootout will have already written 1 nil in his team's favour before it started.

Then the unthinkable happened ten min before extra time. He decided to headbutt an opponent right on the chest. Given that he scored 2 header goals on 98 final when he won the world cup then, you can imagine how the opponent would have fell on to the floor and rolling around.

Not an excellent way to end your career.