1st Nus exam

Juz finished my 1st final exams in Nus. Nothing much to cheer or be proud abt. Probably wont do too well anyway. Phy n ee r my worst subjects, I'm just not good when it comes to things regarding physics. Maths and programming shld be abt normal I hope, as for soci just hoping for the best as I've not been reading and writing alot?

Anyway its all over. Heard the results will be out for christmas. As a christmas present for all of us. Did I mention I don't wish to receive any presents for christmas this year?

Still not sure what I am going to do for the holidays. Was thinking of either finding a job or staying at home help to do abit of house cleaning and maybe do some physical training as well. Have been totally inactive ever since I left army. But think should wait for Monday. The teacher in charge got some bad news for us. So i shall hear 1st before I decide on anything.

Some minute things that happened recently...
1. My bro lost his hp. 2nd time. Same as the previous time which he dropped it on the cab. But the difference this time is that the cabby did not find it in his vehicle. So I accompanied him to buy a new phone. 2 hundered bucks. I "lent" him.
2. 1 of my gd fren wl is having his bdae today. He's celebrating with his gf who had planned everything. Sweet right? And the funny thing is that her bdae is only 3 days away, lets see what tricks he can pull out from his bag to move his gf.
3. Another gd fren of mine who entered army in sep and I havent seen him since then, is just admitted to hospital yesterday. He told me his leg is swollen. A case of chao geng(try to escape from training)? 3sg Wrath is going to verify it today.

Yes... I am feeling bored. Maybe I should drop by the library for some books or the vcd shop for some vcd. Think I can do with a long break before the next semester starts.

没那么爱他 - 范玮琪

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

On day of PE

Pe == Practical exam.

Let's not go straight into the topic of pe as of now, as it has been 1 of the more "happening" days ever since I got into Nus. (Can see my Nus life is very boring?)

Went to the sec sch I'm coaching for a "meeting" with the principal. It only took 5 min. Made me wake up so much early, losing precious time which could have been more effectively used for sleeping?(and studying as well) Apart from the meeting, saw something happened that I never seen when I was a sec sch player. The teacher in charge saw 1 boy had his hair dyed, so he told us he's sending the boy home. My reaction then was ok, it's his authority as a teacher and the boy is indeed in the wrong so I'm not going to interfere or whatsoever. But one of the other students, tried to be funny and commented that the boy had a different hair colour because he swam too much. The teacher was infuriated and wanted to send the boy back as well for his long hair. Apperently the boy further infuriated the teacher by talking more nonsense as the teacher escorted him out. So what happened later was that some HODs came down to the court with the boy, called in the other boys into a classroom to be lectured by the principal while 1 teacher trim the boy's hair on the spot. The boy was then brought into the classroom and immediatly given several canings. He is then suspended from volleyball trainings.

Qn 1: Is it a good idea to suspend the boy? From my point of view it is equivalent to giving him all the freedom to do whatever he wants over the entire duration of the holidays. Do you think he will really take it as punishment?

Lesson 1: Know what you can and cannot say to certain people.

As for the actual Pe itself, I actually discovered/ further substantiate what I know about myself in that short 1 3/4 hrs. 1. I am really a computer idiot: I could not login to the questions and network succesfully and had to rely on the TAs who were around to help me. Ended up starting later than my neighbours. 2. I am lazy: I did not practice on the program that we are using on for the pe at all before today. As such I had to force myself to adapt to the different commands and the mechanisms of the system, which I do not think is really helping my cause to get better grades? 3: I am hardworking and I do have at least abit of mathematics cells in me: Somehow I managed to solve the question and write out a working program which some were not able to. To be honest, all the practice I did definitely helped. But as the question was about pascal's triangle and some area of inner triangles whose name I cannot remember, it took quite a short time for me to sort out the method to go about doing the counting. So I guess my maths helped. 4: I am an idiot: There's this line which I did not take note when reading through the marking guidelines. "Program Design (modularity, choice of functions): 15 marks" In my program I totally did not make use of any functions, which could mean I will lose all of the 15 marks? Well...

Qn 2: Is it fair to students who cannot spot the method of finding the area when some other students may have already have a better knowledge of the pascal triangle?

Lesson 2: Read the marking criteria carefully before you sit for any exam.

It is getting abit long but this is going to be my last point anyway. Was looking through the forum at night and I was quite amazed/astonished/stunned/shocked by some comments certain people made. The background information is that our Pe is divided into 4 sessions as there are not enough manpower nor resources to cater to all the sutdents at one time. So there was a sutdent from a later session who tried to ask for the lab 1 question in the forum. There was quite a big backlash and certain words like "cheater" came out. I have to admit that I also heard from a friend who only heard from another friend about the point about having to use arrays for session 1. That is not particularly helpful anyway. But since we know that all the questions will be different, and there is moderation on a per session basis, what is really the big idea about later sessions people knowing about earlier questions? I remember reading a sociology article on which mentioned some western students commenting that asians are cheaters because we share resources and study past year papers.

Qn 3: So can we really label asians as cheaters? Or in the earlier context, people who try to ask for previous questions cheaters?

Lesson 3: Know what can be openly declared and what should remain underground. U can never break the law if you know how to go around it or do not get caught.

Ps: Its been a long time since I wrote something that makes more sense...

Pre pract exam

Was doing the last semesters' practical exam questions over the weekend. Somehow my code never look vaguely like the model code, but still at least those codes work, after I spend quite abit of time thinking and editing the code again and again. Maybe I am not cut out to be a programmer? It does not really matter I guess. I can never see myself as a programmer anyway. But why am I trying so hard? There are a few reasons:

Reason 1: The most straight forward one. For grades. Out of my five modules this semester the only 2 modules more likely to pull up my grades will have to be maths and programming. Since I did ok for my mid term already, might as well do my best to maintain it and get a better grade?

Reason 2: There are a few friends who think my programming is good. So if even I can't do the code, they also won't be able to do it? So I have to at least try to get it done so that they know they still got a chance to do it. My code should be easier to understand than the model code anyway, so I can send to them if they need it.

Reason 3: I am trying to avoid physics. One of the worse part of me is that I always try to avoid things I do not or afriad of doing. Swimming, cycling, setting etc. Physics is also in that accumulating long list. I know I have to really buck up and spend a lot of time in it. But since PE is just round the corner so I should spend more time preparing for it in the meanwhile right? At least that sounds correct.

Anyway I still got only 2 more days to preparing for my PE. Hope I do well. Time to start praying.

Programming

Today is my 4th and final lab assignment for programming, or actually I should say yesterday. But anway, something that happened just evoke some thoughts from me.
We had the choice of going for the programming tutorial of another session this week as our own session was disrupted by the public holiday, which is optional, but since my class has a tutorial straight after that in the same classroom, most of the class turned up and sat around the same area. Lq asked me to show her my code for today, and it ended up being circulated among the people sitting on the same row. During the short interval before the next tutorial, I was there to entertain questions about the code and programming stuff. What made me take note most was that those people are not the ones who are usually "friendly" with me, but somehow maybe its because I'm supposed to be quite OK in programming that they consulted me.
Thinking back, if I kept my intial intended low lying attitude in class, I'll probably end up not talking to like most of the class?
At the end of it all, I suddenly get this feeling that its too realistic out there.