SCS

Came back from serving my 2nd SCS yesterday. This time I only went down for the last segment of the seminar.

I signed up for a slot for the nxt SCS. Decided to sign on the spot when Veron reminded me why I should get a slot for Val. Please come back on time and attend it.

money

Was supposed to help xd buy products and send it to him today. But too bad I don't have enough cash and I did not inform him to transfer me earlier. So had to ask wl to transfer me money to get the products, then transfer back to wl after xd transfer me the money. Was waiting at CS like an idiot waiting for the funds to get through. Oh well, at least the good thing is I got to chat with the CS for quite long.

----------

Met sw for lunch. It was her treat. Given that I always came up with the lame excuse that I was working and she was not working whenever we met up over the past few years, it is finally time for her to treat.

----------

Actually I felt quite useless. Got sacked from coaching. WBG also not doing very good. Had to keep borrowing money from people. Then I was staying at home for the past few days doing nothing really constructive. Decided to obey the deadline that I gave myself to find a job and go for plan B, which is back to G2000. The pay is not very good, 5.50 per hr for weekdays, 6.50 per hr for weekends. But at least it offers abit of flexibility to my tuition and WBG. And I could easily adjust the shift if I find another job or relief teaching. So no matter what it is still good. And I need to pay off my loans as soon as possible.

----------

Something wl said the other day struck me today. She thinks my life is very boring. So I keep attracting people with VERY "exciting" stories to confide in me. Yes, I managed to add to my story database today again. Wow.

----------

KL tomorrow!

Home

While all the others seemed to be busy with their work or with WBG, I Stayed at home for 3 days straight. Sunday was mother's day, so sounds reasonable that I stayed at home to accompany my family right? Monday and Tuesday was supposed to be waiting for a job interview but did not receive any calls at all. So I guess that is gone. No choice then. Have to look for other jobs. Today I'm going out to meet sw for lunch, then by right I want to go to office to help xd buy some stuff. But I forgot to get him to transfer me the money earlier. So no choice have to wait until night time. That means I have a long break after lunch to dinner time, which I'm supposed to meet lj for dinner. Oh dear... how should I spend the time? Maybe it is time I dig out a book and start to read or I will just go and walk around. Ah... maybe I just go back to HC to take a look at the kids?

----------

Last week was my birthday. Not really much of a celebration. Those primary school friends, as always, did not really bother. Ok they are guys. Met with a few of my sec/jc teammates for mahjong on wed, which is not for my birthday anyway. But felt good to meet up with them. And I did recoup some loss from the previous session. Thur met up with wl, mj and annie for KTV in the afternoon, and after that went back to WBG for battle camp part 2. Haha... all the hooha about bringing towel and swimming goggles and all that. In the end most of us are not really that wet. After that I was half surprised half not surprised when Annie suddenly announced that it was my birthday. And I was like eh... Actually it was quite expected that they will buy cake and help me celebrate in office, especially given that they knew I would definitely be around. But... I still prefer abit more low key. That day almost all the leaders were around, including Nic Chia also. And I took a photo with him! The cake was good. Fri afternoon brought wl for an iris scan (I just realised I have 2 friends with wl as initials), his condition is much worse than mine. Too bad his family's had a bad experience with MLM and he does not believe in MLM. I hate it when I want to help and know I can help but the person does not want to be help. How many times must I endure this? After that we went to KTV, which being my second session in 2 days, my throat was almost gone. Luckily wing spared me the agony by leaving work early and so she came to find wl. And I left back for office to hang out for awhile before leaving for bugis. Met with my ISE clique for dinner at Jerk Thai(except for Nic who is enjoying himself in Taiwan now), and the guys had a difficult time choosing since I have a bit of food restrictions on Fridays. They choose to treat me to dinner and after that we went to some coffee outlet to hang out. Just simply chit chat and discussed about out systems design project groups. So I'm back with wb, ama and hj. I must say that although this formation is not very strong but I'll very much prefer to stick with this team for reasons probably only ama will know. Oh I must say, hj was very pretty that day. Though if I said it that day I think she'll just whack me. Oh yah, they gave me a bag as present. Just the thing I need. And it is black in color. Suits me just fine.

----------

Tomorrow I'll be leaving for KL to attend a seminar. Wl's suitor is going to meet us there after the seminar. That's when the highlight of the trip begins.

晴天雨

你说你是雨天
而我是太阳耀眼
说我不适合出现在
你住的灰色世界
想晒干你的泪
却被你简单拒绝
在我手心里的温度
好想要分给你一点
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
我能够期待晴天下的雨
你说你不怕黑
一个人也无所谓
独自撑伞走过伤悲
不再和爱有关联
我想要带你飞
飞向彩虹的另一边
我们搬进幸福的里面
一直到永远的永远
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
我能够期待晴天下的雨

晴天雨天谁说只能对立
我偏偏只想和你在一起
美丽美丽好浪漫的晴天雨
我们的天空不再孤寂
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
让我期待晴天下的雨
让我们的天空不再孤寂

A song I pretty much love this days. Nothing special or significant about the song, perhaps I just like the simplicity of it.

----------

I've not been blogging for longer than I know. Why am I away for so long? I do not know. Perhaps because my life took a turn last year. Saw an opportunity, took it. To say I never look back is a lie. But maybe I cannot look back. There is only the front that one can look forward to.

----------

I guess by now perhaps nobody bothers to come in and check whether I do have new posts? But maybe I'm quite easily influenced also, been looking a few of my friends who are quite active in blogging these days and I really do remember the times I used to blog quite frequently. So here I am back. I will try to post more entries as and when I am free or when I have new ideas.

----------

Again I have to remind myself not to repeat the same mistake I made. I am scared. And I am really treading on thin line this time round. Be careful Wrath.

----------

Guess this is a very incoherent post. But I shall end of with what I learn from watching spiderman 3 (for those who have not watch it, please go and watch it?) "Do the hardest thing. Forgive yourself"

Yes. We should all learn to forgive ourself for what we have done in the past. (This is also for someone if that someone found my blog). They always say forgive and forget. That means you have to learn to forgive first, before you can truly forget. I have also done things I regretted doing. I have also regretted not doing certain things. But can we change anything from the past now? I will forgive myself all all those things I did in the past from now on. Can you do so too?

Markov property: The future state depends only on the current state.