Pre pract exam

Was doing the last semesters' practical exam questions over the weekend. Somehow my code never look vaguely like the model code, but still at least those codes work, after I spend quite abit of time thinking and editing the code again and again. Maybe I am not cut out to be a programmer? It does not really matter I guess. I can never see myself as a programmer anyway. But why am I trying so hard? There are a few reasons:

Reason 1: The most straight forward one. For grades. Out of my five modules this semester the only 2 modules more likely to pull up my grades will have to be maths and programming. Since I did ok for my mid term already, might as well do my best to maintain it and get a better grade?

Reason 2: There are a few friends who think my programming is good. So if even I can't do the code, they also won't be able to do it? So I have to at least try to get it done so that they know they still got a chance to do it. My code should be easier to understand than the model code anyway, so I can send to them if they need it.

Reason 3: I am trying to avoid physics. One of the worse part of me is that I always try to avoid things I do not or afriad of doing. Swimming, cycling, setting etc. Physics is also in that accumulating long list. I know I have to really buck up and spend a lot of time in it. But since PE is just round the corner so I should spend more time preparing for it in the meanwhile right? At least that sounds correct.

Anyway I still got only 2 more days to preparing for my PE. Hope I do well. Time to start praying.