No longer a player

Went for volleyball training today again. Second time I went. Last week I was late and I still got to play 3 sets. Today I got to play 0 sets. Spent my time on the ger's court setting balls for those who didn't get to play. Rediculous. I don't need to spend my wed night practising setting. U will not see me next week going down for training.

All was still going well before training. Did my maths tutorial 2 and I actually managed to finish it before I slept at 5am. Went for sch and programming lab was still not really that bad, for I did some reading up before going. So knew almost what to do. EE tutorial was a breeze as well. After that I went to the library and to my surprise, I'm actually almost finished with maths tut 3 as well.

Nothing went well after training. I'm now having a headache, probably because I did not really hydrate myself today. Plus I didn't eat lunch and dinner as well. Was supposed to eat supper with pf and whoever wants to go, but I walked off straight after training.

I'm old and mature enough to understand the point about if you are not good enough, you don't get to play. It is such a simple idea. The point is am I not good enough for even a set? Its a damn insult that I don't get any match practise in this team. Bad way for me to spend a wed evening spoiling my own mood and not getting any good practice. Not to mention another backache, painful knees and ankles about to go anytime.

I was at one point of time a good libero. At least thats what I thought and many people could see. Only until I went to a certain team did it all change. I spent 2 important years of my volleyball career not getting any good training to be a libero.

I lost. Badly.

Anyone who read this... I'll be ok with a night's sleep. Sleeping is the only time you don't have to think.