mistake

I had made this one single, unknowingly and unwillingly mistake that up till now I still do blame myself whenever it comes into my mind. I really hope to tell myself its not my fault as I myself won't have wanted things to turn out that way, but there are just so many things in life that you are not in control of. That incident happens to be one of that many.

The problem with me is that I have a very bad memory. I'm half or actually near to eighty per cent close to committing exactly the same mistake as I did the other time round. I'm finally realising it now. But its now too slow to stop the same mistake from occuring.

I really dunno how it will go from now. Maybe its just that I abit too paranoid about the whole issue. Maybe it won't turn out the way it turned out the previous time. Maybe it will turn out to be for a happy ending this time round? Maybe I should really attempt to do something about it. Maybe I should just let it flow and see how it goes. Maybe I don't really know what I'm doing.